a truly reflective moment

I was so angry today. Just one of those days where I’m tired and I just need quite because I’m just one or two noises/talk backs away from slaughtering my siblings. You know what I’m talking about :-) Anyway, I was having a particularly difficult time convincing my little bro to give me just 5 secs (or an hour) of peace so that I could just relax. I’ve honestly asked him to be quite close to 10 times (he was supposed to be sleeping and even though we were in different rooms I could even hear him whispering because of the paper thin walls). I finally stood up and told him angrily that the next time I hear a peep from him I was going to hit him and it was going to be PAINFUL! I warned him time and time again, and he wouldn’t listen! WTH more did he want? He was asking for a serious beatdown. Fortunately, mom came before I lost control and took over. I went back to my room to cool off and finish some school reading.

As I was reading my textbook, I kept going over the incident and getting angrier. How dare he disobey me? How many times can you give warnings before you can give proper punishment? Then a thought hit me out of nowhere but stopped me in my tracks. Wasn’t that the kind of relationship I have with my lord? Promising to worship and obey him but disobeying and sinning every single day! Wow. And he has warned me BEFOREHAND of the consequences of my actions, yet I don’t listen or change my ways. Subhanallah!

Alhamdulilah Allah has more patience and mercy and forgiveness than I can ever attain or hope for.