I am feeling like SHIT right now...sooo embarrassed & guilty and disgusting. I had a presentation and I totally fcuked it up...and the worst part was that I really studied the material & memorized it...and when I got up to do my talk I got so nervous that I completely blanked out, mumbled, lost my lines and just sounded like a stuttering idiot.
I desperately wanted people to know that it wasn't a last minute thing...I honestly took a lot of time and effort into it but my stupid public speaking terror kicked in and just totally ruined everything. I am so humiliated.
This is the first time I've felt and understood the need to sink into the floor. I am so glad I have the weekend to moan over it without seeing any of my classmates....hopefully they forget about it by Monday...I can hope!!!
I desperately wanted people to know that it wasn't a last minute thing...I honestly took a lot of time and effort into it but my stupid public speaking terror kicked in and just totally ruined everything. I am so humiliated.
This is the first time I've felt and understood the need to sink into the floor. I am so glad I have the weekend to moan over it without seeing any of my classmates....hopefully they forget about it by Monday...I can hope!!!
posted by Lonesome Dreamer @ 3:08 p.m.
5 Comments:
At November 2, 2007 at 5:58 p.m. ,
Aya said...
Oh, Dreamer, so sorry to hear of that. It is maddening to prepare and choke when presenting publicly. If it's any consolation, even the most experienced of public speakers gets frazzled and disoriented. Your classmates won't even remember so chill out this weekend, and don't even think about it.
At November 3, 2007 at 10:55 a.m. ,
Nativedaughter said...
Come on girl, it is just college. For a minute i thought is was life or death. I can tell you that i could never remember what happened in a class after it was over. And who cares what a bunch of people think of you, it is important that you tell your prof about your fear of public speeking my friend did it always and maybe redo. Other then that enjoy your weeken life is too short to worry. You need to be out and about enjoying it.
At November 4, 2007 at 1:13 a.m. ,
Organica said...
You know?
I feel like crap too. This Wednesday I had a presentation and it didn't go as smoothly as I wanted it to. You know what I find? When I am the least prepared, I rock!
Plus, people don't really pay attention in class.
Buy your favorite chocolate, on me and celebrate that the speech from the hell is over with.
Lots of love.
At November 5, 2007 at 9:55 a.m. ,
Lonesome Dreamer said...
It felt like the end of the world to me...
Sigh...The fact is I do care too much what other's think...and I get soo embarassed quite easily and frequently.
At November 5, 2007 at 1:10 p.m. ,
TheAdvocates said...
Dreamer, everyone has the occasional disaster presentation day. Soon enough you'll grow confident (may even grow argumentative and shove your opinion down other's throat) and perform just as good as any other person.
PS: Improvise loosely, I'd say. Point by point.
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