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The post below was written at a particular moment where I was feeling spiritually empty...bereft. My faith seems to be on a seesaw...high at times and lately tumbling to the ground at an alarming rate. I pray (alot never on time) yet I don't feel anything. It seems like I'm just going through the motions and alot of the times I can't even concentrate. I find myself shooing away thoughts of school, work, friends, news. Stuff that I didn't even think about prior to starting the prayer! When I go to the Masjid or a lecture, I get so pumped. I feel inspired and I rush home wanting to apply all that I have learned. For a couple of weeks I do everything well and feel content...yet there comes a time where I slack off and I just lose all the motivation. I can't keep playing Shaytaan...yes he tempts and he leads astray...but I have to give him the permission first. It's all about choices and I seem to be making bad ones lately. Inshallah things improve.

I leave with this dua for me and also for you. We are never not in need of a dua:

Ya Allah, let me love You as You deserved to be loved, and let me fear You as You deserve to be feared, and let me leave this world having fulfilled my promises to You and living and working and worshiping entirely for Your sake.