Speaking of books...

I’ve always wanted to write a book. I’ve started a chapter book when I was 15 and actually loved writing it. It took me a couple of weeks and I was just so proud of my writing when I inevitably lost it! I was devastated. My brain just woudn’t work - I got major writer’s block for months because I kept thinking about how much time I’ve invested and lost. I didn’t try to write anything after that. But now, I’m having those nudges again, subtle at first but getting sharper and sharper as time goes by. I don’t want to go all crazy and be disappointed in the end so I’m looking to try to hopefully write and publish a children’s book or two, maybe in the next 3-5 years. I’m being very optimistic and realistic at the same time. I’ve been looking through publishing sites and the information there is just mind boggling - it would take me a couple of months just to absorb myself in the system.

I will try to follow my dream this time, inshallah, no matter how long and difficult it gets. A man who received more than 100 rejections before he published his best selling book inspired me yesterday as I was reading my morning paper. I guess my fear of rejection and wasting my time for something that potentially might never be published far outweighed my desire to see my work in print, although it is quite an intense desire.